Monday, December 20, 2010

Discovering God...Again

While sitting on my deck that overlooked the Teche Bayou in Louisiana, I was talking to God and prayed a prayer that has led to many changes in my views of life.  I had been having trouble sleeping as I was thinking through where I was in life. Many things were disturbing me. I didn’t like where I was and wasn’t sure where I was headed. My wife and I were separated and I lived too far from my daughters. Spiritually something was amiss. Peace would come then disappear. I had been working many hours on a project that consumed me. It was very successful but completely unacknowledged. All this seemed to just hang there as I sat staring at the water.

I prayed a prayer that night that I believe altered my course. It went like this: “God I do not want a revival. I can’t think of anything I would want revived. I don’t want restoration. I want to know you and experience you in a way I have never known. I want to read the Bible and see what I think you are saying without being influenced by what I have been told you were saying. I do not want to imagine that I might be hearing your voice or your direction. I don’t want to go by any old or familiar feelings. They have proven to be unreliable. I want to experience you exactly as you desire to be experienced. I want this as fully as a human being is capable. I want real companionship with you. A companionship that is unlike anything I have ever experienced.”

I never could have imagined where that way of thinking would lead me Many times I have been more than a little frightened by the radical new thoughts and ideas that have been presented for my consideration. Well, radical for me anyway. I was shaken to discover that only now in my life I have begun to see areas in my belief system that have gone unexamined

I see things in the Bible I have never seen. When I read the stories and am able to remove views from my own religious teachings, I begin to see some drastic differences in what I was taught and what I now believe is being said. I find this both frightening and enlightening at the same time.

I have new questions now. I have new insights. I now see more evidence of God in the world. Nothing has changed except a few shifts in perspective. It has been like removing a blindfold. 2011 is going to be a great year!
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  1. UnknownAugust 5, 2011 at 7:19 AM

    This is truly great! We are born good as an expression of God. We are a part of him. Go within- know that you don't have to find him b/c he is in you. Once we let go of all the dogma and the idea that God is a territory- we are free to understand the light is within us and ready for true expression. It is spirits most complete happiness when we lift up to this understanding.
    Humans love to put everything into a category, it is in our mundane nature to find our tribe and then to use some type of rule to keep others out. This is the lower nature- run by ego. We are all created and embraced in love- anything else is immaturity. Everything, EVERYTHING is derivitive of two things only: Love and Fear. Every person has either one of these in action at any time of the day. To express love is to allow your higher expression- your God expression. If you think about it- any time you ever made a move to fully go out on a limb and just do something that was for the sake of truthful love no matter the risk; the flood gates of abundance open. This is God; Love; Light in perfect expression. Rock on Rick.
    -Genna Cannon

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